Life: Full of Curveballs & Grand Slams

The journey of life, exciting, fun, unpredictable, adventurous, worrisome, scary, risky, fortunate, optimistic and unfair.  So many different words can be used to describe one’s journey through life and at any given time the description can change.  Sometimes life is predictable, while other times life blindsides you.  Leaving you ask the simple question, Why?

This blog is a record of our journey through life as a family.  And almost everything I blog about could be labeled as the happy, exciting, fun, fortunate and optimistic descriptions of life.  As much as I want this to be a happy place for family and friends and especially Victoria, the reality is, momma isn’t always happy. I have a good life but at the same time…

Life is not fair.

I consider myself to be an incredibly strong person, one who does not wallow in my sorrows, but who makes the best out of a any situation, an optimist.  I am strong for others and I am strong for myself. Always.

I posted about strength several months ago {November} and here I am 18 weeks later still dealing with the issues that prompted that post.  And maybe someday I will have the strength to talk about my medical issues on the blog.  For now my focus is to soon be done with this journey and start a new one, filled with all the happy things in life.  I am fortunate that my medical issues are not serious, and only taking a physical and emotional toll.

I have never been at a point in my life where I have run out of strength, but after weeks and weeks of being hopeful and optimistic, the continuous disappointment has caught up with me. My strength supply is almost on empty. Surprisingly this is the first time in 32 years I have felt this way, again, a reminder that I have a good life.

I know that the pain I feel is only temporary and it has not prevented me from being a good wife, mom and teacher.  I continue to cherish this life and all of the fortunes I have been given.  I get up each day with one foot in front of the other, continue to be hopeful, and do not take any day for granted, even the crappy ones.

I also know that life throws curve balls, and eventually I will knock that curve ball out of the park {preferably with a grand slam, yes, even rookies can hit a grand slam}, I just wish I knew which game it is going to happen in.

Until then, I am glad to have this face to wake up to everyday…